Jayesslee’s Failure in Disguise on replay this morning. We all have this kind of days; days you feel you’ve been doing so well only to come all crashing down. Mine was centered around the discovery of a blackened pot- a shred of cabbage still hanging on tenaciously to the edge of it, hard and dry like a cemented testimony of my carelessness and inability to be responsible. Permission to use the kitchen so many months ago was granted on the sole condition that I kept everything in pristine condition and everyday I endeavored to keep it so–more than so. I mumble an apology, a little stunned at my own carelessness only to be met with a scathing remark that an apology was USELESS. And now, with the last of the harsh words hanging in the air, all I wanted to do was to kick the nearest wall, throw up my hands defiantly and say’ FINE! throw away all my stuff! Say I’m ALWAYS irresponsible. That I’ll NEVER change. Discount all the times I’ve ever been good! I’ll have all my meals out from now on! SCREW HEALTH!’
Maybe I would have. Except that I’m 26 now. And at 26 you recognize that it was your fault to begin with and in light of everything that has happened all good and bad, it is as insignificant as insignificant can be. I’ve come too far to give up now, to throw in the towel. I recognize it’s my fault, find ways to solve the irredeemable and to my surprise, the thunder passes like it does on a rainy day.
Life really does go on, even when you feel like a failure sometimes.
So chin up, everyone. This too, shall pass 🙂
Oh Hugs!! I totally feel for you because my mother is still like that and I am 30-year-old and married with a kid! My house will only be ready end of the year and trust me, back in the days, I wished I grew up quick, get married so I would have my own kitchen and décor to my taste! Hahaha .. I broke her food processor yesterday and she was so angry and called me twice to yell at me. This morning, my maid passed me a note of the food processor model and I have to now buy the spare part for my mom. I love all your efforts in living healthy and so genuine in sharing all that you know. You inspired me heaps, Grace!! Keep it up! Jiayou! So happy I found your blog recently!
Mich
Aw, thanks mich 🙂 Hahaha. You must really understand since I wrote it so cryptically and yet you hit the nail right on the head! 😉 Thank you for all your encouragement 🙂 It really people like you that keep me going! :*
I can totally sympathise with this… I have the same problem too. Seems to affect people of that generation I think.. and especially housewives who are too focused on their own little world.
Hi babe! Hope you are doing well 🙂 Yeah- most of the time we are fine and dandy though 🙂 I always try to remember all the happy things and be grateful haha 🙂
Please have more recipes of your weekly home-made meals! I'm trying to start clean eating now and the only problem is I have not much idea of what to make. haha. You're so inspiring and I'm so so so so happy I chanced upon your blog!
Hi Ivy! Thanks for dropping by! I'll try to upload more! haha! Thank you for all your kind words! Do drop by often and let me know how you are doing!! 🙂